Best thanksgiving ever... <3 J-Dizzle

Best thanksgiving ever...
<3 J-Dizzle

so I watched this movie tonight... weird thing is, I don't know how this movie came to my mind. But all of a sudden I had to see it. I don't know how I remember seeing it before. I couldn't even remember the name of the movie. But I had to know. All I could see in my head was a scene of a man crossing a street to have dinner with his wife.

Turns out the movie I had in my head came out in 1989. I don't remember seeing this movie as a teenager, or an adult.

Just odd. But all through watching this I think of Brian.

The way he joked earlier, he jokes now... does he think of that?

"After all that we've been through
It all comes down to me and you
I guess it's meant to be
Forever you and me
After all"

I love my sister :-)

I love my sister :-)

I think he's gonna crush me. After that dream, I feel like I'll die all over again. Does anyone know what I went through after Michael? I had a dream like that once with him. Then years later it ended. I don't know how to do that again. I'm... LOST. I have this vision in my head of how things should turn out. would turn out. Then part of me says "this is how it worked out in the past" how am I supposed to know the difference. My 'programs' wanna harden myself and prepare... I just can't live that way though. How are you supposed to know what's right though?
J-Dizzle

I had a dream last

I had a dream last night. One of those thats so good when you are in it, then you wake up and it wears off and you're crushed . I wanted to cry.

So i'm getting ready to see the simpsons movie. this cartoon has been on air for ages! Ages! crazy than my age is the middle of the age group that is ecstatic about seeing it. thats how long It's been on. I'm watching it with my boyfriend who is ten years older than me, and his nephew who is ten years younger. If this movie is as good as they make it sound it'll pull the most money of the year. So far i'm a bit cynical. I mean an hour and a half of Simpsons, no commercials? Crazy! We'll find out though.

i don't know when to

i don't know when to stop.

Don't ever fly US Airways. they dick you around and can't come right out and tell you why your plane is delayed 6 hours. Douche bags.
J-Dizzle

Brooklyn Bridge was amazing. I can't believe that it was built a century ago.
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I love New York. Absolutely,

I love New York. Absolutely, thats it
J-Dizzle

Well today is the big

Well today is the big day. SKY DIVING. I'm so excited I don't know how to feel. It's gonna be awesome though.
J-Dizzle

What a disappointment, brian pulled

What a disappointment, brian pulled an "oliver" tonight. Got too drunk to keep his word. Fantastic.
J-Dizzle

Just in case you can't read that it says, "...I'm losing my mind without you. I love you..." How could you be the way you were to me and not feel bad? sure things are okay now. But is that any way to act toward someone that you 'loved'. I wanna say that i would die for the guy I'm with now, do anything for him, but how could I know after you

I Love Him

So, yeah i never write anymore. guess i kinda forgot about it. I was just sitting here thinking how weird people are. why is it people have to be shady and steal from their friends (not a situation i'm in). what is it about them or the way they were raised that some part of them has no guilt about this. Fucking rude. i wonder how their minds work. It's weird. people are weird.

i don't even know what i wanna write. Things are going awesome with brian. he's freaking amazing to me. I wonder sometimes "how'd that even happen?" i never would have pictured him and i together. We've been seeing each other for almost 2 months now. wow.
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