yeah, that movie was weird! (Clockwork Orange) tonight we are gonna watch another movie :) ( Moulin Rouge) I've seen it before but Crystal hasn't, so we rented it. It's cool, I think my favorite part is when they sing. :) I told Crystal that the next movie we rent should train spotting. It was a weird movie, good (and at some parts funny ~in a kinda Gross way~) but very weird.
Pat and Matt are cooking for us right now. Last night Crystal and I made the BEST spaghetti, we did the sauce on our own too, not the out of the jar stuff, and the bread turned out freakin awesome! We made our own garlic bread! All we did was buy a loaf of fresh bread. It was so yummy! And we sat at the table like a "civilized family" hehehhe, it was fun! All right I'm gonna go hang out in the other room! Bu-Bye! :) :-p

Hey what's up? not much here. I'm writing this like a note. :) anyways today is (was) good. I talked to my dad on the phone and when we hung up he said "I love you" I always wanna cry when he says stuff like that. I love him so much. Anyways I had a big long talk with crystal tonight. for like an hour and a half, it didn't feel like that long. she's definetly my best friend in the wide world. I seriously love her like a sister. My Big sis (huh 7?) anyways we are gonna go watch a fucked up movie (clock work Orange) Later. Lani I miss you, call me when you get your cell. And STINA is coming !!!!! YAYAYAYAYYAY!!!!!

I love living here with her because it's like we can have "girl talk" anytime. She's always there for me. I love you man!

Holy iSht! I can't believe it's 2003! I know I'm gonna fuck it up when I write on papers...I'll probably still write 2002. Last night was cool I got FUCKED up!....yeah I was pretty wasted. Good way to ring in the New Year. And lucky me NO hangover! woohooo! Crystal & I are gonna make Laulau (Yummy!) tonight...or try. :) okay we are going to the store...the Oriental store. Bu-bye!

Wow! It's been 4 days since wrote on here...That's my record, I think. I dunno. I leave to go home to Colorado tomorrow morning. Cool huh? Christmas was great. I ended up staying in Phoenix for two extra days so I could go see Lani in Tucson, but I didn't even get to do that. Kinda Shitty. Hopefully I'll get a chance to see her when she has spring break. Oh I got to go to California on Thursday and got new shoes!......Long story I'll write it later. Bye gotta go My friend is here! Bye!

So, I'm home now, I tried calling my swim coach and got his voice box, I think I should have left a message...but I didn't, I'd rather talk to him, so I'll call back on the 26th. I hope he doesn't think I quit.
The bus ride to Phoenix was really long, it was supposed to be only 21 (HA! only!) hours but it ended up being around 23 hours. It's cool though I made some really neat friends. It's weird how you just talk to people on bus rides. I can't believe I am doing that again in 3 days! agggghhhhh! oh well. I'm really glad I got to come home for Christmas, it would have been nice to have a white one but I have plenty of time for that later in life. :)
I just got off the phone with my aunt in Hawaii, I got to talk ot her for about 40 minutes, which is cool I haven't seen her in about a year and before that it had definetly been a while. I got her address though, so now I can write to her. I love writing letters...pen pals are fun, (aren't they 7?) hahahah. Anyways I'm gonna go now...gotta give Santa some time to slip down the chimney. Night guys...Breathe Deep & Merry Christmas!

My life IS crazy...2 days until Christmas, and I will be home for it. Expensive...but I'll be home. I gotta call my swim coach and tell him. bye.

I feel good right now. I really like this swim team so hopefully everything will work out. yesterday we swam about 4,500meters. And my muscles are killing me, but it's good. It snowed on my way to practice yesterday! It actually snowed starting at 2pm until around 7:30pm where I live, it didn't snow in Denver though...at least not that I could tell. Well I am starving right now so I am gonna go grab some food! Bye Bye!

Well I went to swim practice yesterday...I almost threw up like 3 times. But I didn't. For the warm up we swam 300m swim, 200m kick, and 100m pull. After that we did 50mx8 freestyle, then 25mx25 butterfly, then 1000m Individual medley, then another 1000m Individual Medley, and a 200m cool down. Yeah, it was tough...I'm not sure if the hardest part is the fact that I haven't had a real practice in so long or the mile high altitude. I'm totally gonna be ready for nationals when we get to it. I have 5.5 months to get ready.

Okay, so I talked to the new team. They are looking for a new coach because one of theirs is leaving. Here is how it could work: I coach for them and in return they give me a scholarship to be in the club. It's the only way I could ever afford a club like that...it's $2,400/year! I'm sorry but that's insane. Hopefully I get the job, then it's about 8 hours of my week and they pay for me to be in the club. That would be nice, anyways today I go back and they are gonna let me practice with them, and I'll get to talk to the head coach. I'll head there around 3:10ish.

well that swm team probably won't work out...I know it's been a few days, I just haven't been able to get on-line. Well, that team sounded great, but they want me to pay for the whole year up front, I can't afford that. Because I am a non-residnt the price would have been $625/year (which is actually $2/month cheaper than gauchos) and the price is going up Jan. 1st. Pretty shitty huh? well Ihave another team lined up that I am gonna check out. I have two of the coaches numbers up on my white board. Oh and I'm extatic! I got 3 letters from Adam today! well tah-tah-for-now! I'm gonna go take a shower!

Okay, well I'm going to go check out a swim team right now...crazy huh? it's 36 degrees out and I wanna go swim (in an out door pool!) !!! I just can't stay away, All I'm gonna do is watch thier practice and talk to the coach. But maybe he'll let me start even though I can't pay yet...in that case I am going prepared. I've got my suit on and towel ready. :) Bye!

Life is good! hahaha....I'm on the phone with my step-mom. :) hehehe I got a new phone! Well, new to me (which is all that matters!) I like it, it's pretty! And I took our movies back today. Let's see what else did I do? Uhhh...Look for a job...that's about it, but hey! it's still early. :-p...Bye bye!

Oh, Yeah...AOL Blows! hahaha...I can't type in any AIM window or anything....Stupid AOL! (maybe it's just becasue it's the AIM Express Version...So I don't have to download anthing, I don't like downloading on other peoples computers.)

I'm supposed to head home in 6 days, for Christmas...I can't believe it's that time of the year already. It seems like last Christmas was only a month ago. Goes to show you how fast the year can pass. Since last Christmas I have accompished what? I have gone through the EMT-Basic course in college and gotten my EMT certification, I have taken my first written test with a Fire Department (And gotten an Interview!!!) , I have worked in the Glendale Fire Department. I was an Assistant Manager at a pool, and also the Head Coach of a Swim Team. (Any More???) I had reconstructive Surgery on my Achillies Tendon, Taken Wildland Firefighting Course, ummm... Ended a Three Year Long Relationship...Oh And I MOVED out of State! I wonder what will happen next year...Pretty Good for a 19 year old huh?

Monday...today, I actually like Mondays, the beginning of a new week. My horoscope (like I believe that BS) this week says that my "work" luck is an "A" so I should be able to get a job! hahah, But it also says I should avoid Libras...almost everyone in this house is a Libra. I'm gonna hide from them!

Wow, today was interesting, I slept until 1pm. I haven't done that in quite a while. (I think) I guess it doesn't help that I didn't go to bed until 5am. hahaha. I spent the last 20 minutes beating my door sensless trying to put anew door knob on. That was fun! but hey, nowI I have a key lock on it. :) bu-bye

I am having De Ja Vu again...I can't believe this twice in one week. I just had this feeling that something was gonna happen so that something wouldn't happen...I wonder if it will come true. Because my De Ja Vu was just that I had though it wouldn't happen...and I felt like I had thought the exact same thing about the exact same thing before.... Weird....Yeah, maybe I should go to bed soon.

Yay! it's Friday....Did anyone sign my guestbook? I just put it in last night. I can't beileve I didn't go to bed until like two am, then I woke up on my own around ten or 10:30am. Usually I would have slept until noon, but I woke up good. I went and took some of the movies back to Blockbuster & went to the post office. Then I was gonna set up my PS2 but there is a cord missing (pardon my language but...) that fucking sucks! There is no way I'm gonna go buy that cable again, it's probably like twenty dollars, I can't afford that.
Yesterday I went out and put in some applications so I can have a job until I get hired with Crystal. Cool huh, I can't wait. I really like it here, A lot! Crystal & I have matching Key chains w/ a "special key" on each one. It's out thing. :) well I'm gonna go now. Later!

WooHoo! Crystal doesn't work tomorrow! (I'm on her computer right now...shhhh!) I have my bed in my room and it's cleaned out I've even got some pictures on the wall. So last night I had a really weird dream.
First I was at school (high school) and Mike was there and I kept talking to him and it was like we had just gotten in a fight because I was still really mad at him and he was kind of mad at me. Then school got out and I drove this huge white truck somewhere, And next thing I know I was with the Cadets I saw Katie , Sophie & Alex. And we were doing some kind of Practical thing so we had gloves on and we were waiting for calls on car accidents. I kept taking my gloves off and having to put new ones on when we got calls. Then after that I was at some kind of party, and Casey & I were the first ones there so I had a drink already and I was sitting on the couch and they gave me another one then there were like 15 people there sitting on the couches and I was getting cups to have slushies and everytime I put my cup down I had to grab another one because my cups kept dissappearing. So I kept going to the cubboard ( I dunno how to spell that) and grabbing new cups.
I woke up kind of sad. I don't know why. I think it was a really weird dream, especially the fact that I kept changing my gloves and getting new cups. I didn't even have a reason to change the gloves I was just standing there I hadn't touched anyone yet. I dunno it was weird.

YAAAAYYYY!!!!! I'm home, I am so happy to be back. I love you Lani & Mom & everyone else...Momm (april) the Banana Bread is freakin awesome! I had some on the bus. The trip home wasn't as bad as the trip there. I met a ton of cool people, mostly (hot) guys...and me being the only decent looking chick on the bus I got a lot of attention...Hahahah! Yaaayyyyy! I'm home. I'm gonna go find a job until I get hired on with Crystal. Gotta be productive.

Oh, yeah...I feel really good today, it was snowing in New Mexico last night, and I threw a snow ball at a Budweiser (this should make the parents feel good, I had to look up how to spell "Budweiser") sign and then I threw one at some chick! . :) We had a few tiny flakes this morning. :-p I feel really good right now. Gonna take a shower, I'll feel even better! Yay! I love my Life!

Know what else, I am listening to Metallica right now (on Crystal's computer) and I listened to "Nothing Else Matters" and it didn't bother me at all. :) ~for those of you that don't know, it was Mike & My song...for three years, I remember for our two year anniversary he was out of town and I heard "our song" and it made me cry like all day long.~ I'm glad it didn't bother me because it's a freakin awesome song. I had songs with almost all of my ex's... Stephen "I Cross my Heart"(George Strait), Paul "Life's a Dance"(John Michael Montgomery), and Michael "Nothing Else Matters"(Metallica)...I've only had four boyfriends and my first one & I didn't have a song...I dunno if he really counts. It was like 8th grade! hahahah! Taylor Davis, I remember still...

Anyways I'm gonna go take my shower now! Bye.