Well, today (April 10th) is my 20th Birthday...Weird, I don't feel any older. I sure don't think I look *much* older. It's just because 20 is no big deal. Eh! what can I say..."I'm tired" (that's what) so lets re-cap...
I love my life!
Best Present this year is between a few things, definitely between number 1 & 2:
1) A picture of my Grandpa next to his Military Jeep (when he was 26 years old) from my step-mom.
2) My little sister (Lani) coming to visit me from Tucson :)
3) A card (just the card) I got from my dad, I really like what it said
4) The dozen, red, long-stemed roses that were on my desk when I got to work (from my boyfriend)

The best present I've ever gotten was for my 18th Birthday, and Lani had 18 people call and leave messages on the answering machine at my house. Number 18 was my dad and my little sister singing happy birthday...I cried. It was the best I've ever gotten. (and it didn't cost a dime!...I'm not a big money person)
NIght everyone! (I'm not a teen anymore YAY!) Breathe Deep & Sleep with Angels!
~5~

eight-six-seven-five-three-oh-ni-eeii-ine...
~I saw the best new commercial today. If I drank soda I would totally go buy a Mountain Dew. It's the commercial where the dude is in the ocean in a boat. And he kinda sit's back for a second and grabs a Mountain Dew out of his bag like "ah" and opens it, then a whale swallows him and in it's stomach he pops open a flare and sees a huge group of people and they are like "hi!" and they all hold up thier Mountain Dew. Then when the whale dives under you can see the bottom on it's tail and it says "Do The Dew". Funny stuff.
~I wanna either go 4x4ing on Sunday or go work at the fire station. Both sound great, I'll probably do the latter. But going four wheeling would be a blast, I'll go if I can find someone to ride with me. That way I don't have to meet a bunch of new people alone.
Breathe Deep & Sleep with Angels...
(I wanna see Paul)

My Birthday is in two days. I don't really feel like it's that soon. I don't think I am going to feel any older than I feel now. No special "privileges" come with this birthday (20)...or the last one for that matter (19) the only difference is I'm not a "teen" anymore. Woohoo!
***For some reason I have this picture in my mind that if anyone were to hear me read this out loud they would get some drab and monotone voice.** That's how I would feel like reading it right now. I'm tired, and I guess kinda pissed off. Not thoroughly pissed, just kind of annoyed I suppose. Yeah, Annoyed is a better way to put it. I don’t feel like explaining right now. Maybe later. Breathe Deep…

Look at This!!!

Tom Arnold is freakin' hilarious! Hahahah! He was on Jay Leno tonight for his new book "How I lost 5 pounds in six years". I am definitely gonna get that book...just for the title. Man, he's cracked out too, like kind of restless. Funny stuff. I didn't know he was 44! Whoa. There is some golfer chick on right now too.

Oh yeah...I just realized "Wow! I've had this page for a long time!" Almost half a year...(that's a long time for me).

Wow! I love Third watch! It's the best show in the world. At least to me. :) So yeah, i just got done watching it. It was the first of FIVE new episodes (Five is ME!) Leading to the season finale. Well Sully has been an Alcoholic for most of the season (all of the season) SO...Some of the other cops "kidnapped" Sully and took him into the woods for an intervention. It was a great episode. Usually the show skips around between the cops, paramedics, and firefighters but this episode showed what happened with Sully like how he went though withdrawls. He was seeing things and he hit Bosco over the head with a small log because he though Bosco was a bad guy. Great show. :) You guys should check it out! Monday Nights on NBC...It's on after Fear Factor so at 8pm for me (here in Arizona)
Whoa...someone fucked with my Template...WTF?!? I'm confused, how did it happen???

I did that "weirdo" quiz again...




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Nice huh? it's so me...
"Muehehehehe" Just sound it out man...

I posted this on this page too, but I really want everyone to see it, so I'm going to put it up on this page too. it's my top 10 list of "Favorite Smells"
here it is:
1) Jasmine Blossom
2) Rain in the air: like when you can smell it before it comes, and it's so thick in the air
3) Campfire: the next morning on your clothes
4) The air at the beach or in the "forests" in Hawaii
5) Orange Blossom
6) Fresh Roses: Like in a garden or when you are out pruning the bushes
7) The Forest/ Christmas Trees: especially after it rains
8) The desert when it rains
9) Men that I care about: with or without cologne they all have a certain/different smell...*sigh*
10) My Pumpkin Pie Baking in the Oven

Oh God! I've done Nothing but smile the last few days...I'm sure people think I'm stoned (but I'm not). Any ways, Life is good.Actually, it's not good, It's GREAT!!! Paul is great...I'm so into him. *sighs, and floats off to cloud nine*
I'm doing a lot of Volunteer work this week. Wednesday I've got a ride-a-long from 4pm to Midnight. And then Friday I'm going to be a victim for the Paramedic class from 8:30am to around 2:30pm. Cool huh? I think so. Saturday I should be doing a Habitat For Humanities building project. That will be fun, but I need to call around (fuck today is "A" shift! Damn it!) I have to call on Wednesday. Because the contact guy is a Rover. so I can't just call one station to find him (unless I get lucky) Darn. Eh! Birthday party to go to. Bye bye! Crystal is Legolas too! YAY!!!

one more quiz today! hehehe. I love these things. Crystal did some pretty cool shit with the "My pics (shibby)" page and with the "nothing yet" page I really like it, a lot. y'all should check it out...
about this quiz...I think Legolas is the hottest character there! hehehe. Too bad this doesn't put a pic of him on my web page. :( That would be great! Ohhhh! It does.
Legolas


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"WE make a living by what we get, but we make a Life by what we give." unknown
Just think about that. God! I love my life. I've got the greatest guy. He is really awesome, and I'm so comfortable with him. I just enjoy having him around. , I miss my big sis...That's all for now.

Man! I'm falling hard for this guy. he's really great. Last night he said "Jonya, I'm really falling for you" and I was like really? and he said "yes" and I was like Truthfully? and he said "yes" then I said "I already fell" God! he is great, I'm so worried that he is gonna break my heart. We were talking about what we are looking for in a companion. And after he said his thing I kinda chuckled 'cuz I was gonna crack a joke, and he toldf me to say it...so I did. I was like "So, basically you're looking for me." :) and he said "yes, I am looking for you. I've waited my whole life for you" oh, man! he's got a way with words...sometimes it's totally story book, you know? Too good to be true, like "How can this be my life?" but right now it is. And it feels so good.

YAY! I get to see him today! It's really great outside right now, sun is out and it's probably about 80 degrees (give or take some) or so out side right now. I bought (with mom's money) some oranges today, so I'm getting ready to go sit on the grass out front and have an orange or two (they are kinda small for oranges) Just kinda to enjoy the weather outside. It's great out today. :) Breathe Deep...

I'll add on to last nights (late night) post: God, this guy is great! But when I wrote last night I was happy because I got to talk to my big sis (Crystal)! God! I love talking to her! She really is my big sister.
But yeah (Jamie) I did talk to him, not really about anything in particular. He's so great. I mean...*sigh* He tells me (constantly) how good I am and how gorgeous I am, and "I've got this light about me"…He really makes me smile. Last night he told me “I’m crazy about you” (*sigh* I’m crazy about him too). I keep going back and forth between being so happy about him and being ecstatic about my big sis! She's gotta come visit me now...Life is SO good!!! I really want to go camping....

Do you ever just have memories, and wish you wrote them down on somedays, kinda so you could keep remembering them over and over again? I do.

Oh My God! Dude! Holy Shit! AhhhhhhAAAAhhH!!!! YAY! I love you Big SIS!!! *Sigh* God! Life is great! It really is...I can't even say anything...I love my life! I'm SO Happy right now! I just want to jump up and down! AHhhhhhhh! I've got this little "happiness" buzz (adrenalin or endorphins...something!)

Class was good...Grief & Death Notification. Long, and that classroom is HOT! But, he wasn't there. Blah! It's all good though...so, I'm gonna vent:

*sigh* (here goes) I really (REALLY) like this guy...But, I am so afraid of being hurt. I don't quite know what to do. My mind is pulling me in two different directions. It's like I like him but I'm scared. I like him more than I am scared of being hurt. It's just that it's there in the back of my mind.
I'm going to see him tomorrow...should I tell him I'm afraid of being hurt? I want to know what he wants from me, like: relationship, friend (I'm sure it's not just a friend), (as bad as this sounds) friends with benefits? See...to me, he is a great guy, definitely Boyfriend material, but I don’t know what he wants...should I ask? I think I should but I don't want to scare him away...I mean it's not like I'm gonna ask him to be my boyfriend (I leave that up to the guy) I just wanna know...eh!

hehehe! I was just listening to a CD in my Jeep (Crystal will get a kick out of this). Well, song ends and next one starts, the guy didn't even start singing , it was just the intro music, and this little voice pops into my head, "This is my dad's song to me!" *sigh* good times, good times...This one's for you 7!

YAY! 2.5 hours until class! (the clock on this site is wrong)

***Note: when I said "Stupid People suck" :) I was refering to people that have no common sense. (or very little common sense, for that matter). I guess like when people say (or do) "stupid" things...How many people have heard the song "Where's Your Sign?" I think stupid people need signs...Oh yes, and I realize that I am NOT perfect. I too have done stupid things...I don't do them all the time though.

YAY! :) class starts in 7 hours...still too far away. :(
(is that enough detail on the "Stupid People" thing?)

Awww...he wasn't in class today. Bummer. :( Hopefully he'll be there tomorrow. He called me. I've barely known him for a week and it was SO nice to hear his voice on the other end of the phone. *sigh* I'm going to bed now.
~Sleep with Angels~
Breathe Deep...