It's been a really weird week. Court yesterday to finish taking care of my DUI's and Now I have a court order that I am not allowed to drink alcohol until further notice... I didn't know they could do that when you weren't in custody.

It's a good thing though. Oliver would rather me not drink as much, and now He'll get more letters and I'll have more money. Does kinda suck though. I went to and AA meeting last night. I'll tell you what, that sucked. I don't think I'm an alcoholic, I don't know why I was there. My sis wanted me to go with her, but I didn't fit in.

I really did have a hard day yesterday though. I miss Oliver all the time and there are days where it feels unbearable. Yesterday was totally one of those days. I couldn't even think about him without wanting to cry. I hope I get a letter from him soon. I wish he was home, I just wanna keep him happy for the rest of our lives.