so it's good to hear from people that I haven't heard from in years... That's on my mind tonight. I guess it's been on my mind alot lately, after seeing Michael at the funeral Saturday and hanging out with his whole family that afternoon. Kinda watching the "life I would have had" I can't believe how much people can change when it feels like I really haven't changed at all.

I had a dream about Oliver the other night. Him coming home and me being there searching for his face in a sea of cammies. and I wake up with my heart beating so fast from the excitement, just to realize that he isn't coming home for half a year. I really bottom out there, just to realize how much longer I'll be without him. It's killing me already.