I keep seeing Oliver sitting across from me at Minerva's (I'm 99% sure how to spell that name). And I'm saying about how next time we need to sit in a 4 person booth so we can both see the TV (because they are talking about the blizzard New England is gonna get) Yet every time we're there we sit in a small booth except the very last time...

It's sad how I sleep with the phone near my head just in case he calls, or I fall asleep with my hand on the picture of the two of us (that I taped next to my bed).

It's 5am and I wake-up thinking about him and I can't push it out of my mind... Everything about me hurts and nothing helps it go away. I work as much as I can, I try to keep busy, and still as exhausted as I am at the end of the day he is all that I can think about for hours on end.