YAY! I get to see him today! It's really great outside right now, sun is out and it's probably about 80 degrees (give or take some) or so out side right now. I bought (with mom's money) some oranges today, so I'm getting ready to go sit on the grass out front and have an orange or two (they are kinda small for oranges) Just kinda to enjoy the weather outside. It's great out today. :) Breathe Deep...

I'll add on to last nights (late night) post: God, this guy is great! But when I wrote last night I was happy because I got to talk to my big sis (Crystal)! God! I love talking to her! She really is my big sister.
But yeah (Jamie) I did talk to him, not really about anything in particular. He's so great. I mean...*sigh* He tells me (constantly) how good I am and how gorgeous I am, and "I've got this light about me"…He really makes me smile. Last night he told me “I’m crazy about you” (*sigh* I’m crazy about him too). I keep going back and forth between being so happy about him and being ecstatic about my big sis! She's gotta come visit me now...Life is SO good!!! I really want to go camping....

Do you ever just have memories, and wish you wrote them down on somedays, kinda so you could keep remembering them over and over again? I do.

Oh My God! Dude! Holy Shit! AhhhhhhAAAAhhH!!!! YAY! I love you Big SIS!!! *Sigh* God! Life is great! It really is...I can't even say anything...I love my life! I'm SO Happy right now! I just want to jump up and down! AHhhhhhhh! I've got this little "happiness" buzz (adrenalin or endorphins...something!)

Class was good...Grief & Death Notification. Long, and that classroom is HOT! But, he wasn't there. Blah! It's all good though...so, I'm gonna vent:

*sigh* (here goes) I really (REALLY) like this guy...But, I am so afraid of being hurt. I don't quite know what to do. My mind is pulling me in two different directions. It's like I like him but I'm scared. I like him more than I am scared of being hurt. It's just that it's there in the back of my mind.
I'm going to see him tomorrow...should I tell him I'm afraid of being hurt? I want to know what he wants from me, like: relationship, friend (I'm sure it's not just a friend), (as bad as this sounds) friends with benefits? See...to me, he is a great guy, definitely Boyfriend material, but I don’t know what he wants...should I ask? I think I should but I don't want to scare him away...I mean it's not like I'm gonna ask him to be my boyfriend (I leave that up to the guy) I just wanna know...eh!

hehehe! I was just listening to a CD in my Jeep (Crystal will get a kick out of this). Well, song ends and next one starts, the guy didn't even start singing , it was just the intro music, and this little voice pops into my head, "This is my dad's song to me!" *sigh* good times, good times...This one's for you 7!

YAY! 2.5 hours until class! (the clock on this site is wrong)

***Note: when I said "Stupid People suck" :) I was refering to people that have no common sense. (or very little common sense, for that matter). I guess like when people say (or do) "stupid" things...How many people have heard the song "Where's Your Sign?" I think stupid people need signs...Oh yes, and I realize that I am NOT perfect. I too have done stupid things...I don't do them all the time though.

YAY! :) class starts in 7 hours...still too far away. :(
(is that enough detail on the "Stupid People" thing?)

Awww...he wasn't in class today. Bummer. :( Hopefully he'll be there tomorrow. He called me. I've barely known him for a week and it was SO nice to hear his voice on the other end of the phone. *sigh* I'm going to bed now.
~Sleep with Angels~
Breathe Deep...

Yay! I have class tonight! I can't wait for class...I wish the class was a whole semester long. So...what is my day like? Actually looks kind of busy. I work from 10am until 4pm at 5pm I've got a Lake Pleasant protocol meeting (in case there is a lake emergency). Immediately following that is the cadet meeting. Then I haul ass out to Tempe for my class. I wonder if I can get the cadet meeting info early so I can leave right after the Lake Pleasant protocol thing. That would be great!

Hmmm…Crystal might get to come down for the Mexico trip, she’d be here the 20th. That would be so awesome! It really would. Oh, I wish I wish I wish (I were a fish! Teehee!) She would come. Then she can meet “The guy” :) That gave me this (3rd pic down) I really like him… (I’ll write more later today)

Oh...One more thing :Stupid people suck...they piss me off (is that bad that I say that? I think stupid people piss everyone off)

hey! How many people watched Fear Factor tonight? How about Meet My Kids (supposed to be Meet My Folks)? It was great...although I'm bummed Third Watch wasn't on...:(

Song of the Day: "All that Jazz" (who sings it?) I've had it in my head since I woke up...
Memory of the Day June 26th 1999 The day my little(est) sister was born. God she was so small. She's grown up so fast...still growing up so fast. I don't know what I'm gonna do when I have kids. Can't protect them forever you know... *sigh* I love my family. I can't wait (uhhh...Yes I can) until I have my own family (probably a very long ways away). *Wow man! I can't even think one sentance without thinking (ummm) more than one sentance? Hahahah.*

Today I was reading over some of my old enties in the archives. I can't believe how far I've come along (like my mind set) since what happened with Mike. I've recently (within the last few months) realized that he was not as good to me as I thought...I felt like he had "pulled the wool over my eyes" I mean, If you read the first few entries on this website. I was saying how I thought no one could ever treat me better than he did... Jesus Christ what was I thinking!!!! I mean shit! He always took his problems out on me! Yelled at me...I didn't deserve it. but he just wanted power over something, me. Not anymore. I used to think I was never going to get out of that "rut" I was in after he & I broke up...Used to think I was going to hate every guy forever because they were all like him...But , God!, they aren't! and I see that now. I am so much happier now... I feel like I smile a lot more, and I feel good about myself again. I don't feel like every guy is like him anymore...Thank God!
Breathe Deep...

I'm having the best day today. I'm sure I could explain why, but I don't really feel like I need too. you know? I didn't really have anything else to say right now except:

It's beautiful out side today...I wish I was doing something later, maybe I should go hiking or something. It's too great out to sit at home all day *after work*. :) And...Today is just a really good day!

WOW! I just had the coolest date ever! (No, really I think that was the best date I’ve ever been on.) I know I grinned the whole nightlong. I mean that is totally a good thing. You know? *Sigh* I wish Lani would pick up her phone. I want to tell her all about it.

My step dad likes him…my mom likes him. ***I like him***(They really liked it because he introduced himself to them and shook their hand. My step dad said “he looked me right in the eye when he did that, I like that. He’s good”) ~I’ve got the biggest grin right now. :) and I'm sure I sound as giddy (p-wotw) as a high schooler. hahaha.

We went out to eat at The Cheese Cake Factory. I’ve never been there and it was so awesome. And he gave me the coolest gift I’ve ever gotten; I’m seriously going to carry it around with me all day tomorrow so I can show it off. It’s really cool. WANNA SEE??? (3rd picture down)
Then we went and saw Chicago. I had a really great night tonight. Really great…Sleep with Angels and Breathe Deep…