I am having De Ja Vu again...I can't believe this twice in one week. I just had this feeling that something was gonna happen so that something wouldn't happen...I wonder if it will come true. Because my De Ja Vu was just that I had though it wouldn't happen...and I felt like I had thought the exact same thing about the exact same thing before.... Weird....Yeah, maybe I should go to bed soon.

Yay! it's Friday....Did anyone sign my guestbook? I just put it in last night. I can't beileve I didn't go to bed until like two am, then I woke up on my own around ten or 10:30am. Usually I would have slept until noon, but I woke up good. I went and took some of the movies back to Blockbuster & went to the post office. Then I was gonna set up my PS2 but there is a cord missing (pardon my language but...) that fucking sucks! There is no way I'm gonna go buy that cable again, it's probably like twenty dollars, I can't afford that.
Yesterday I went out and put in some applications so I can have a job until I get hired with Crystal. Cool huh, I can't wait. I really like it here, A lot! Crystal & I have matching Key chains w/ a "special key" on each one. It's out thing. :) well I'm gonna go now. Later!

WooHoo! Crystal doesn't work tomorrow! (I'm on her computer right now...shhhh!) I have my bed in my room and it's cleaned out I've even got some pictures on the wall. So last night I had a really weird dream.
First I was at school (high school) and Mike was there and I kept talking to him and it was like we had just gotten in a fight because I was still really mad at him and he was kind of mad at me. Then school got out and I drove this huge white truck somewhere, And next thing I know I was with the Cadets I saw Katie , Sophie & Alex. And we were doing some kind of Practical thing so we had gloves on and we were waiting for calls on car accidents. I kept taking my gloves off and having to put new ones on when we got calls. Then after that I was at some kind of party, and Casey & I were the first ones there so I had a drink already and I was sitting on the couch and they gave me another one then there were like 15 people there sitting on the couches and I was getting cups to have slushies and everytime I put my cup down I had to grab another one because my cups kept dissappearing. So I kept going to the cubboard ( I dunno how to spell that) and grabbing new cups.
I woke up kind of sad. I don't know why. I think it was a really weird dream, especially the fact that I kept changing my gloves and getting new cups. I didn't even have a reason to change the gloves I was just standing there I hadn't touched anyone yet. I dunno it was weird.

YAAAAYYYY!!!!! I'm home, I am so happy to be back. I love you Lani & Mom & everyone else...Momm (april) the Banana Bread is freakin awesome! I had some on the bus. The trip home wasn't as bad as the trip there. I met a ton of cool people, mostly (hot) guys...and me being the only decent looking chick on the bus I got a lot of attention...Hahahah! Yaaayyyyy! I'm home. I'm gonna go find a job until I get hired on with Crystal. Gotta be productive.

Oh, yeah...I feel really good today, it was snowing in New Mexico last night, and I threw a snow ball at a Budweiser (this should make the parents feel good, I had to look up how to spell "Budweiser") sign and then I threw one at some chick! . :) We had a few tiny flakes this morning. :-p I feel really good right now. Gonna take a shower, I'll feel even better! Yay! I love my Life!

Know what else, I am listening to Metallica right now (on Crystal's computer) and I listened to "Nothing Else Matters" and it didn't bother me at all. :) ~for those of you that don't know, it was Mike & My song...for three years, I remember for our two year anniversary he was out of town and I heard "our song" and it made me cry like all day long.~ I'm glad it didn't bother me because it's a freakin awesome song. I had songs with almost all of my ex's... Stephen "I Cross my Heart"(George Strait), Paul "Life's a Dance"(John Michael Montgomery), and Michael "Nothing Else Matters"(Metallica)...I've only had four boyfriends and my first one & I didn't have a song...I dunno if he really counts. It was like 8th grade! hahahah! Taylor Davis, I remember still...

Anyways I'm gonna go take my shower now! Bye.

I feel great today! I got a lot out that I needed to get off my chest. You know what though, some people just don't understand (You know who you are MM...Have you ever really been in love? Seriously, I want an answer) I can't believe the nerve of some people to say that "it's been four months you should get over it" after I had been upset all day. Just so you know...You made me cry. Comments like that are totally not acceptable, especially if you want to stay on my good side. So you've officially used your one "asshole" card, I won't give you another one. No offense but I don't need friends like that, so if you want to stay on my good side, an apology would make me feel a little bit better. Yeah.
On a better note! Last night was awesome! I went over to Casey's house and Him, His brother (Brandon) His roommate (Justin ~hottie~ hehehe) and I played "Twisted Metal: Black" until 1am! I got my ass beat (I think the most kills I got in one "derby" was two, hahaha), it was the thumbnails I swear! They were just to damn long, I couldn't push the buttons right. :) It's okay, when we were done I trimmed my nails a little bit shorter. (Don't worry 7! they are still there) But now I can push the buttons right! Yay! I can't wait to come home and play, what about you 7? I'm gonna bring my guitar, and my PS2, hmmm what else am I bringing? I dunno...We'll have to wait and see, seeing as how I haven't packed yet. My dad still hasn't called me. He's at work right now, I could call him...But I really wish he would call me...So I knew he was taking the time out of his day to think about me. I wonder if he does a lot.
Wow! I'm sure I am not the only one that noticed...I have a lot of issues over guys. Wow I just had really bad De Ja Vu! Insane! I know what's gonna happen...I'm calling Crystal...I'm gonna make a bet with her.Okay it's done. weird. Okay....I love today. It's awesome so far! Me so happy.

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It's december 1st! I can't believe it...wow I did so much today. I love Mike's family. I miss them so much, I miss him a lot too. I went to visit Shannon and Kyrsi & Kaylie today. Then I went and visited Suzzette, and then I went and saw grandpa Stu... I really do love them. More than they know...I think I was crazy today, I wanted him so bad, not him totally just the feeling of his arms around me his smell...I used his bathroom today, it looks exactly the same as it used to. His cologne was sitting on the counter along with all his other bathroom stuff. ***Aqua Di Gio*** I miss him so much sometimes. everything about him...I hate it because I can't get rid of the thought of him when I am near those things...His name, his cologne, how he hates tomatoes, how he loved Cherry Pie & Green bean casserole, the way he would hold me after a fight, Just the way he would hold me, his eyes...God, he had beautiful eyes. I loved everything about him, I still do...that's why I hate it so much, because I crave it... I smelled his cologne when I used his bathroom, it was like a knife in my heart...I feel like I'm suffocating when I think of it (Breathe Deep)...Like it's a drug that I just want more of, but I can't pay the price. Sometimes I wish I could though...Just for one more day.