Nothing to Lose...and yet Everything

I'm breaking down... There is no where for me to be alone and I wanna break down so bad but I can't let people see me that way. I wish there was a corner I could run to and hide.

I can't get Oliver off my mind, he's always there... in my thoughts. I'm so tired of writing to him because I can't handle the dreams that follow those letters. I just wanna hold him.

My heart aches every moment of the day...

Almost 2 months where I am, 2 months to go. I don't wanna hurt anymore. I'm so tired of hurting, I just want him home and I never wanna let go again. I'm tired of being strong and holding onto myself. I wanna let it all out so bad.