Can life be different for

Can life be different for just a minute?

It's really a small world.

It's really a small world.

I had the weirdest dream again. HE was in it. This time he had a little boy. I asked how old his son was. "six years and six months". First I wondered if it was mine. Then I remembered things don't work that way. then I was mad. Had he cheated on me? Still the whole time I thought maybe I had missed something in my memory and it really was mine. Crazy.

i wonder what other people dream about. brian says he dreams about falling and stuff. "nothing real". Not me though. I dream about "real" stuff all the time. At least things that used to be real. I took a nap today, and dreamt about him. The one that nothing has been the same since... Will I always remember his face? I feel like I could never forget... no matter how hard i try to

All I ever wanted was to be a firefighter...

I'm sad now that football season is over. Can i hibernate, like a bear, til next season?

I finished my book just now. 237am. What sane person reads until that hour? I'd say me... But Who's to say i'm sane? :-)

It's almost this Keanu Reeves thing
J-dizzle

It's a new year. Things are great... But i have to add, she doesn't deserve it.

Best thanksgiving ever... <3 J-Dizzle

Best thanksgiving ever...
<3 J-Dizzle

so I watched this movie tonight... weird thing is, I don't know how this movie came to my mind. But all of a sudden I had to see it. I don't know how I remember seeing it before. I couldn't even remember the name of the movie. But I had to know. All I could see in my head was a scene of a man crossing a street to have dinner with his wife.

Turns out the movie I had in my head came out in 1989. I don't remember seeing this movie as a teenager, or an adult.

Just odd. But all through watching this I think of Brian.

The way he joked earlier, he jokes now... does he think of that?

"After all that we've been through
It all comes down to me and you
I guess it's meant to be
Forever you and me
After all"

I love my sister :-)

I love my sister :-)

I think he's gonna crush me. After that dream, I feel like I'll die all over again. Does anyone know what I went through after Michael? I had a dream like that once with him. Then years later it ended. I don't know how to do that again. I'm... LOST. I have this vision in my head of how things should turn out. would turn out. Then part of me says "this is how it worked out in the past" how am I supposed to know the difference. My 'programs' wanna harden myself and prepare... I just can't live that way though. How are you supposed to know what's right though?
J-Dizzle

I had a dream last

I had a dream last night. One of those thats so good when you are in it, then you wake up and it wears off and you're crushed . I wanted to cry.

So i'm getting ready to see the simpsons movie. this cartoon has been on air for ages! Ages! crazy than my age is the middle of the age group that is ecstatic about seeing it. thats how long It's been on. I'm watching it with my boyfriend who is ten years older than me, and his nephew who is ten years younger. If this movie is as good as they make it sound it'll pull the most money of the year. So far i'm a bit cynical. I mean an hour and a half of Simpsons, no commercials? Crazy! We'll find out though.

i don't know when to

i don't know when to stop.

Don't ever fly US Airways. they dick you around and can't come right out and tell you why your plane is delayed 6 hours. Douche bags.
J-Dizzle

Brooklyn Bridge was amazing. I can't believe that it was built a century ago.
J-Dizzle

I love New York. Absolutely,

I love New York. Absolutely, thats it
J-Dizzle

Well today is the big

Well today is the big day. SKY DIVING. I'm so excited I don't know how to feel. It's gonna be awesome though.
J-Dizzle